This tumblr shall be what it was first meant for... Expressing myself without the fear of what others will think. Because they don't know me. And never will.
I have like 5 cuts about 8 inches long on my left wrist. How fucking perfect. I dont remember doing it. I did it one night at his house that I got super wasted. With his knife. Im so mad at myself because I know how much shit Im going to get myself in once people see it.
I always said that if I were to cut, it would never be on my wrists.
Weve had sex so many times after that..hes nutted in me so many times, yet I still havent gotten pregnant again. Makes me realize how much of a gift it really was. And I ruined it. Well, actually, I killed it. I want a baby so badly. Makes me feel like ill fill this emptiness inside of me. I know it wont though. WEll, itll be filled, with worries on how Ill pay for my next meal. Sometimes I tell myself I wouldnt even tell him if I get pregnant. But fuck that, theres no way I could financially do it without him. sigh*
he still fucks me. without a condom. he still nuts in me. he fucks other bitches. he fucks me with hickies on him that I dont give him. at this point. I can be dead or alive. I dont give a fuck.
And he said they don’t do anything. Lmfao. He gets drunk every weekend. There’s no way in hell I’m going to believe he hasn’t fucked her… He even went as far as to say “i mean..look at her. ughh.”
haha yeah! right. she’s fat. He likes fat bitches. She even posted this quote saying
"The best relationships start out as the best friendships"
Are u sleepy
He said no
I said wanna Watch a movie
He said not really
I said then what do u wanna do
He said I wanna smash
I said then fuck it
He said don’t get get too attached tho cause u gotta go in the morning
Then use a condom
I forgot what else he said
But Then he said I can’t
And then went to throw up lol which he is currently doing right now