March192014

After All These Years

I only have 6 followers. I avoided my Tumblr for years because of my fear to feel how I did when I used to post on this all the time.

WELL, i’m back. And I’m alive. Barely. It’s time I write my feelings out again. It’s my only way. Stay Tuned.

May192012
Yeah. He cheated. The whole whole time. And he was saying it to his friend in front of me. Like he was fucking proud. Even his friend felt sorry for me and asked me what am I still doing there.

Yeah. He cheated. The whole whole time. And he was saying it to his friend in front of me. Like he was fucking proud. Even his friend felt sorry for me and asked me what am I still doing there.

April72012

And to top it off

I have like 5 cuts about 8 inches long on my left wrist. How fucking perfect. I dont remember doing it. I did it one night at his house that I got super wasted. With his knife. Im so mad at myself because I know how much shit Im going to get myself in once people see it.

#goodbyefuturepotentialjobs

I always said that if I were to cut, it would never be on my wrists.

bloopbloopblooooop

10PM

I regret so much aborting.

Weve had sex so many times after that..hes nutted in me so many times, yet I still havent gotten pregnant again. Makes me realize how much of a gift it really was. And I ruined it. Well, actually, I killed it. I want a baby so badly. Makes me feel like ill fill this emptiness inside of me. I know it wont though. WEll, itll be filled, with worries on how Ill pay for my next meal. Sometimes I tell myself I wouldnt even tell him if I get pregnant. But fuck that, theres no way I could financially do it without him. sigh*

10PM

he dumped me

he still fucks me. without a condom. he still nuts in me. he fucks other bitches. he fucks me with hickies on him that I dont give him. at this point. I can be dead or alive. I dont give a fuck.

February282012

This girl spends the night at his house when I’m not here.

And he said they don’t do anything. Lmfao. He gets drunk every weekend. There’s no way in hell I’m going to believe he hasn’t fucked her… He even went as far as to say “i mean..look at her. ughh.”

haha yeah! right. she’s fat. He likes fat bitches. She even posted this quote saying

"The best relationships start out as the best friendships" 

IMNOTFUCKINGSTUPID.

February192012

I said
Are u sleepy
He said no
I said wanna Watch a movie
He said not really
I said then what do u wanna do
He said I wanna smash
I said then fuck it
He said don’t get get too attached tho cause u gotta go in the morning
I said
Then use a condom
I forgot what else he said
But Then he said I can’t
And then went to throw up lol which he is currently doing right now

February152012
He does this to me ALL the time. He’ll piss me off by saying something sincerely rude and heartless to me. But then he’ll just keep staring at me and I really just can’t help but SMILE and laugh. Then he completely doesn’t take me serious anymore since I start laughing. He says he “Likes to get me mad” I mean what guy doesn’t say that?! Grrrr.

He does this to me ALL the time. He’ll piss me off by saying something sincerely rude and heartless to me. But then he’ll just keep staring at me and I really just can’t help but SMILE and laugh. Then he completely doesn’t take me serious anymore since I start laughing. He says he “Likes to get me mad” I mean what guy doesn’t say that?! Grrrr.

(Source: lovequotesrus)

4PM
lovequotesrus:

Photo Courtesy: proudtobehappy

Even though our relationship is so fucked up, I hope for the day it gets better. No, Im not just sitting here waiting for some miracle to happen. We really are both changing for each other. I really want to marry him. 

lovequotesrus:

Photo Courtesy: proudtobehappy

Even though our relationship is so fucked up, I hope for the day it gets better. No, Im not just sitting here waiting for some miracle to happen. We really are both changing for each other. I really want to marry him. 

4PM
lovequotesrus:

Photo Courtesy: vid

On our good days, this is how it always it. He makes me heart melt. When we’re hugging each other I want to be so much closer to him. Even though physically it isn’t possible. I;m so in love. This is bad.

lovequotesrus:

Photo Courtesy: vid

On our good days, this is how it always it. He makes me heart melt. When we’re hugging each other I want to be so much closer to him. Even though physically it isn’t possible. I;m so in love. This is bad.

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